Goodbye 2020...

Oh, 2020. Where do I begin?

You have been a year of hardship, pain, anxiety, disappointment, loss, and extreme difficulty. 

But, you've also been a year of growth, increased self worth, joy, peace, and love.  

You see, even through a pandemic, separating from my husband, sending my son to school, losing my grandfather, and so much more,  I chose happiness. I chose, most days, to trust in the plan God has for my life. I chose to grow. I chose to work on being the best version of me that I could be. I chose to shut out all of the noise by choosing things that brought me joy. I chose to be at peace with my decisions and where my journey has taken me. It hasn't been easy, and I had days that I really struggled, but overall, I chose to remain positive during some very negative times. 

So, as I head into 2021, knowing that there are new challenges I will face, I will continue to choose joy, peace, happiness, and love. I will work harder on myself. I will take on these new challenges with the mindset that I can overcome any obstacle I face. I will strive to be the best mother I can be. I will continue to draw closer to my family. I will work hard to let the light in and to let it shine through me. I will choose me and let go of the things that hurt me. I will choose to no longer accept things that are not contributing to my peace. I will choose to love harder and better. I will be better. 

2021 will be better. I am claiming it now, and with God's help, I will come out of this next year an improved version of me...Stronger, more resilient, happier, more loving, more giving, and more kind. 

Goodbye 2020. Thank you for all that you have taught me. 

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