Things of the heart...

My heart has a mind of its own. It loves with a depth that not many understand. It is as fragile as a dandelion, but strong as a roaring lion. It has been battered and broken, but it still beats with rhythm like a melody. It sings when happy and bleeds when sad. It has given me so much joy yet caused me tremendous pain. This heart of mine...if it loves you, it never stops. No amount of distance, silence, or pain will ever cause it to give up. 

I used to hate that my heart is the way it is, but I have learned that it is truly the best thing about me. It’s a weakness, yes, but there is also much strength that has come from letting it just be. I have learned many lessons from this crazy heart of mine, but one of the most valuable has been this: Love has no conditions, no expectations, and it’s never too late to love someone. 

That friend I’ve been missing? They reached out to me this past week. Something horrible happened to them and my heart is broken into a million pieces for their pain. This person is truly one of the best people I know, and they don’t deserve the roller coaster they’ve been on. The crazy thing is, as soon as I saw the text and then heard their voice, my pain was lessened. My heart didn’t feel so damn broken for myself anymore. Their pain became mine. I don’t think they will ever understand, hell, I don’t understand, all that they mean to me, but I would fight demons and fire for them. I’ve been praying hard, every single day, that their soul would find peace, and I will continue to be there in whatever way they need. For now, I am just relieved there was some communication, and I pray they know that there’s at least one person in this world who wants to be there for them and who cares for and adores them just as they are. 

Lesson #6: Never stop loving without conditions. It may be the very thing that saves someone and that someone just might be yourself. 

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